Goodbye 10 year old me.

Do you remember when you were around the age of 9 or 10 and you just couldn’t wait to be an adult? I do. I remember playing house and pretending I was a mom with a car and a house. 

Well I’m now 16 years and about one month old and now I like pretending I’m a kid. I keep looking around my room at my old toys that I played with, honestly not too long ago and I miss them. 

I keep asking myself why I was in such a rush to grow up, because all I want to do is become 8 year old Abby again. I want to not have to worry about the world. I already miss my childhood and I’m still I teenager. No I’m not an adult and no I’m not a kid. Can’t I just go back in time and be 10 again? Can’t I get away with mismatched clothes, carrying around my little stuffed lion not caring about what anybody else thought about it. Can’t I watch a disney movie and still imagine that I’m a princess living in a magical world? 

16 years old, wow. I grew up fast. So I guess this is goodbye, goodbye 5 year old me, goodbye 7, goodbye 10 year old me I’ll miss you, I think of you all the time and I’ll never forget you but now it’s time to grow up. 

But this is also hello, hello 20 year old college me, hello married me hello mommy, hello to future me. I don’t know what’s coming next and I’d love to say I’m ready for it, but I’m not. I can’t wait to see what’s next but I still don’t want to grow up. I know there will be a part of child me still in there that will never want to let go, but there’s a part of me that knows it’s time to grow up. 

I’m not a kid anymore, but I’m not an adult yet either.

                -Abby.

What made my summer great!

Okay, so summer’s not over yet but it’s getting close. I just want to share some highlight moments from my summer and share what I think made it so special.

Of course my very favorite part was getting to be a part of the highschool team that went on a missions trip to Costa Rica, I could never explain the impact it had on my life. I was only there for a week, but it was I week I will never forget.

Another part was when my family and I went camping at one of the state parks. We had so much fun on that trip.

Of course my birthday party was a highlight.

And then there was the summer camp I went to with Rosie and her family.

This was definitely my most eventful summer and the best one I’ve ever had. I think I’ll remember it for the rest of my life.

Now a lot of people travel and go camping during summer, so what made my summer so special?

Yes being with my friends, and family was part of it. But I big part was the fact that God showed up. Before summer I was doubting that God was listening to me, I wanted to know that I was important to him. I felt like he hadn’t spoken to me in a long time and I prayed to him all the time. I couldn’t understand why God wasn’t responding. But there were many times this summer where I felt like God was speaking to me loud and clear.

I’m now one year older, spiritually stronger and I think my love for people has definitely grown.

I’m going to miss a lot of things about being a kid but I feel like this summer I grew up and I’m ready for whatever comes next.

I hope your summer was as exciting and fun as mine.

Thanks for reading!

Love, Abby.